kenape nan ku nie??? hurmmm ?

yup, salam semua... errmmm for title today aq nk cer sal perasaan aq yg berbelah bagi skrg.. humm... yup da lbih kuwang seminggu dye tggal an aq n thatss mean da sminggu aq kpel nan si dia... hurmm cam new nak bgi taw ep.. armm the truth, aq not ready at all tok couple lagi... aq accept unn bab pkir prasaan dye, and mybe akan wat aq forget kt yg dye uhh humm.. skali gus aq harap yg aq bole epy nan dye.. tpi ann.. plz, aq bkn nye sellfish nak gunakan org or ape je lah.. tpi... hummm T__T memg in fact, aq ta bole lupe kan yg dia... memg aq da syg and cinta gile kat dye uhh.. smpai skrg aq ta sngka yg dye snggup tggal an aq? humm aq slalu jew tertanye tnye pew larr kekurangan aq sehingga dye snggup buang aq dai idup dyeee??? tiap2 malam bole dikatakan aq nangis tringat kan dye.. (maaf awak) hermmm setiap benda yg aq wat, semuanye mgingat kan aq kat dye.. yup ~rule abot meggy??? ~solat ta bole lewat..!!! ~suare dye yg bernada nada and evrything larr yg dye buat tok aq.... sumpah, bile aq bersame dye, aq ta ubah seperti seorang istri yg dijge oleh suami... bagai tuan puteri yg slalu dilindungi si raja and bagai juliet yg tenang di smping romeo!!!... humm i mizz him a lot... kalo dlu aq perna bagi taw, yg aq da buat pisang berbuah dua kali  and tak kan adew lagi tok yg ketiga kan??? tpi... kalo bole aq nak bgi dye baaanyak peluang, smpai aq btol2 dapat dyee...  hermmm aq btol2 rindu and perlu dyee........


ea, aq taw.. bile korang bace nie, korang rase aq nie sumpah pompuan hipokrit gilew kan???? pompuan yg ta tau malu??? prasan nak pilih laki yg dye suke.. and macam2 yg bole korang pkir kan??? humm tpi caye lar, aq sunyi, aq hanye boleh ngadu kat cni.. nie larr in fact ape yg ade lam ati aq skrg.. ermmm.. yup aq taw aq mungkin silap bile update yg nie kan???  aq taw mungkin dye akn terase and nie sememg nye akn jejas kan hbungan ite kan??? tpi aq ta perna mksud kan uhh syg.. mybe yg past is past bab ape yg aq nak bagi taw at cni, aq akan mengambil masa yg lame tok mengenalimu, mencintaimu, n setia di sisi mu... seyessly maap...

~ ''awak kna taw nape sy segan sikit nan awak.. n mybe awak lagi larr perasan nape sy ta berape nak lyan awak... nape sy ta perna nak end kan colling kite nan , sayang.. i LOVE you..., humm tular semua sebab2 nye...  pew yg sentiase sy harap.. awak pham and sabar menanti sy.. macam mane awak sabar menanti ex awak yg lamee awak cinta and last awak tetap dpt dye kann?? hummm btol2 maaf aw...".....

buat mase skrg, aq juz nak dye pham yg aq btoi2 ta dapat lupekan si dia seratus pratus.. pliz jgn pkse aq, aq lemahh.. aq takot nan diri aq... aq selalu tenggelam kan diri aq nan takot akan cinta... yup aq memg ta serik.. tpi, knpe mreka ta perna memahami aq and jadi kan aq mgsa cintaaa??? hermmm.. aq, memg malang.  T__T ... buat mse skrg aq juz hope, aq dpat mengenali cinta aq skrg... aq dpat mendalami cinta yg dye bagi.. and aq harap sngat yg dye takan kembali ggu idup aq nan yg dye... hermm... I'M SORRY but I LOVE YOU.... 

hahahhaha ray!!!!

salam peeper.. yup title today seems like we have da cheer stolly right??? haaa lets check it in... not out k..!!! humm yup finlly, rayyy!!! hahahhahaa whats that silly gurlz??? just read thiz.....-->

yeahh meyhh those people yg prasan, sila jgn nak senyum2 k..!!! trutama si gemok..!! ehhehe..... yup i got him with da big smile? seyesly??? unbelievable but its a fact!!! huuuhaaaahuuuhaaa.... yup memg susa nak suaikan diri psal da lame knal kan gemok?? hehehe tpi still bole kwal.. yup lame2 sayunk larr uhh kan gemok?? hehehhee.. now what? tah lar, post kali nie. sesaje jew.. nk test kehepian aq.. hahahha.. ea raYY!!! tapapenth.. hehehe... yeeee same2 say RAYY!!!??? (motif pliz???) ... ~hahhahah xda xda.. tok suka suki aje... yup... juz hope kekal nan kamu syg... hee........... ahhahaha kemaz post aq yg sumpah mepek nie??? k lar, lallalaa..... btw nk agi taw nie.. we took 14 feb of 2012 as our begin for journey... hahahhaha and we will end till we die.. really syg??? opcoz.. hahhahaha..!!!

p/s : jgn mara gemok coz col u GEMOK..!!!! ahahhaha  kutuk un tanda sayang kan???? ayat sape larrtu.!!! hahahha lup u syg... wsalam... those CAPITAL L...!!!!

all about MR CAPITAL ''L''

hye and salam peeper.. yeahh we meet again...!!! hurmm i though u all da bace da past post right, ''aku, engkau dan dye...''... hahha ini continued nya... so thats mean korang interst nan stolly molly abot CAPITAL L is't right??? hahahha yup.. thankz korang... so, ape agi... --->

heartz intro iz : CAPITAL L,  who'is check out on 1995, tried to be smart at High Skul Klang, sweetz tall, chubby and most encem...

                                                bismillahirahmannirahim....

thiz iz all about u Capital L,  firstly aq minta maaf sngat if aq da hurt ur heart.. yup, being selfish gurlz iz da bad thing that i had made...!!! ermm kat cni sbenarnye aq juz nak ngaku yg kehadiran  kau, capital L  sngat lar bermakna.. aq btoi2 minta maaf bab pernah jauh ann diri dai ko dlu... hemm yup, i ma fag and fu*k girlz... yeahh meyh 10 february of 2012 is meaningful to me, end with him without him, but began with u is u... (broken sentence)... haa oke lar berjela aq pokpek.. still ta pham.. sbenarnye aq da taruh hati lame unn kat capital L nie.. cume aq juz sedar yg care dye layan aq ta tumpah seolah2 dye ngah lyan adik dye... so, aq juz bole pendam and enjoyed dilayan begitu... (terase diri ku bermakna bab ade owg yg care for me)... so smalam aq da clash nan dye yg btoi2 wat aq buta nan cinta... trus aq col capital L  tok mengadu nasib and luah kan segala galanye... sape lar pham and thu benda yg tersirat di sebalik COLLING tuh kan, include u capital L.... humm dai smalam aq cube nak take him as my new boyfie... tpi aq malu nan diri aq...!!! mybe aq nie ta sedar diri and terserlah sngat Sellfish  aq tuh.. bab aq bru aje nak col dye, and time aq nan mamat dlu.. aq tros ta pedulikan dye... pompuan jeniz ape aq nie??? (sekali agi aq akn gune ayat nie) ~ Aq bagaikan pengemiz buta yg terabe rabe~ ... humm so motif post aq kali nie, aq juz nk bgi taw (kalo dye bace) yg malam tuhh aq col sbenarnye untok aq luah kan kat dye yg aq sayang dye, aq cinta dye and nak dye jadi milik aq seowg aje... maaf lar, aq ta pandai nak luah kat ko, bab aq terase yg diri aq nie btol2 sial and lansung ta bermakne unn.. humm..  T__T  fucking end ~~~

so, itu aje lar dai aq... dgan harapan satu hari nanti aq dpat wat relation betol2 nan capital L  n sincerely hope yg, aq akn terdengar lamaran ko, juga satu hari nanti... aq just bersabar and wait that word out from ur sexy lipz... ''wawa, bole ite capel x??? and bole wawa jadi awek (capital L) ..... yeaa najwa tggu.. w'salam...

aku.. engkau... & dia..

salam peeper.. ermm yup for title today iz about me, him and da him... yup the first him iz all abot capital A and other him iz all abot capital L... humm ta taw nak citer cam ner and seyesly aq malu nan diri aq sendri... terase diri aq nie cam pengemiz buta yg terabe rabe dlam idup... aq da delete abot past post.. terkenang kn engkau si capital A, seyesly wat aq ase nak mati and idup smula (tok mula kan idup baru)... so i had to throw u away.. far from my life.. sorry for capital A  u never be mine... ckup lar, aq da buat buah pisang berbuah dua kali and tak kan ade agi kali yg ketiga... sumpah time uhh aq buta and terlalu terdesak... aq ingat dgan keadaan ko yg dtg alik lam idup aq bole wat aq caye nan CINTA PERTAMA aq... but seyesly aq clap agi.. ko.... hemm memg btoi lar....!!! (mara nie =,,=)... walopape pon... ko dah buat aq TERPERASAN kat seseorang yg aq rase bersalah gilew... tut..tut....tut... teros ke capital L.. seyesly aq minta maaf nan kamu.. aq taw aq nie useless gile.. lnsung ta beharge n ta layak gile idup dlam dunia nie... minta maaf sngat2 selalu mengabaikan perasaan ko kat aq.. yup alasan aq slalu cam nie, ''kalo aq dapt couple nan ko, mybe at that momment aq epy.. tpi bile aq da clash nan ko pas uhh... aq tak kan dapat ase nikmat nye ade teman cam ko lagi, capital L...  humm aq btoi2 minta maaf..., now mybe aq cube rapat nan diri ko, for evrytime aq contact ko kan Capital L  (aq rase ko pon perasan kat smua yg aq wat kan?), tpi aq still malu gilew, aq perlu mengemiz skali agi, and plizz bgi aq peluang tok adew lam idup ko... tpi tu lar!!! i had made A GOLD WITHOUT VALUEABLE ... ermm so now i ma in my own DILEMA... hahahaa...

p/s: sape ase interst kat cite aq nan CAPITAL L, bole teros follow aq kat next post... all of it iz about CAPITAL L... sincerely hope u read thiz, najwa... w'salam.................

sebab dye, smua owang jadi mangsa Najwa....!!!

hye reader.. humm mybe pelik ckit title for thiz night!!! hummm yup its a continue from past status... herrr asal arr nan aq skrg nie??? smua benda jadi ta kna and smua benda yg adew kait nan dye, smua nye aq rase benci n ase nak mara..... hummm adik dye yg cantik nan bek, ZOul, best frenz dye yg rapat nan aq,  Azizul, frenz dye yg slalu caring sal aq n also miyul, kwan rapat dye yg salalu ceria kan aq.. smua uhh aq ase nak lupe kan n nak jauh diri dari deowg.. unfair kan aq nie??? hermm btw im done it to forget him and throw him away from my life.. n so sorry korang.... mybe a little bit im sellfish gurlz but i still love him.. it's not easy to forget da only love that had being in our heartz...!!! aq buntu.. either i got a new one to substitute him.... ermmm how stupid my mind to remind him ever!!! ( fucking sentence).. hahahha  walo unn cam uhh, still ade yg nk simpati nan aq.. so aq juz thanked yg itu.. aq pham korang, cume korang je perlu pham aq.. tpi cubaan yg baek.... ''Insan yg lemah perlu dibantu'' kan??? kan??? hermm thankz lar tok abg Leim (nemo) da nyak agi nasihat... abg adam ( meet at fb) yg cube memahami n dgar citer aq... abg apiz ( si sewel) yg dahh malyan aq smpai terlupa tragiz uhh... Nurul syazana (bdak chumel) yg daa manyak agi advice and najwa taa lupe kat abg MIYUL ( abg cam artiz), yg tlah menemani aq semalaman and sggup dgar aq mrepek tah papew... smua wat aq EPY.. yeahh thankz kurang.... Wsalam....

p/s : maap lar ending dye lansung takde kna mengena nan title.. hehehee.... btw thankz korang >_<

I'm Sorry, had to say GoodbyE...

Dye... ermm dah taknak NAjwa laaagi....

 salam peeper..!!! urmm for title today iz abot dye, Nur Irfan Syazwan... okey dye da tanak aq lagi.. n lansung ta perlukan aq lagi.... yup, 25 January of 2012 ite break... cepat btol kan??? ite owg kpel ta smpai setahun... bru jew nk msuk half of year.. yup cam besa... sape ta sedih tok smua uhh!!! evryone sedey bile di clash kan... tapi aq... humm memag arr sedey.. siap nan nangiz2 n merayu rayu... tapi aq cam dah biasa lalui smua nie... btw aq unn da bole agak benda nie akn jadi bab ade yg baru masuk, yg lame mesti pergi..!!! hermm T__T...  okey aq ta taw nak bgi taw ape sngat.. mybe hati aq da ancur gile.. tataw yg dia jeniz cam uhh... kate nye nak break bab exam SPM... aq hormat uhh. but disebalik nye aq pham.. yg dye dah nek busan nan aq n mula suke kat yg lain...  urmm ase tade mood tok semua nie an.. but tu lah... aq redha nan takdir.

---> irfan, mekacih aw da jge najwa slame ite couple... najwa minta irfan halal kn segala yg najwa da buat... najwa hormat kputusan irfan n mybe u had ur own reason... ermm either najwa still syg kan irfan ermm najwa tetap kna lepaz kn irfan.. smua kenangan  ite akn kekal lam hati najwa... najwa wish irfan berjaye lam idup and epy slalu... maaf kn najwa if i hurt ur heartz.. missing u, Laili Najwa Md Noor... Wsalam.

                                                                                                        11 September 11 ---> 25 January 12

aaaawak....... dyeeee....!!! hummm???

  salammm cemua!!! urm tiltle ari nie nk stolly sal dye...!!!!! ape mean aawakk uhh.. ~itu aq pggil korang lar dumdum.. hehehhe wat2 pham sudaa..!!! btw ai nie nk story sal dye, my superb boy... humm dye kan... err mkin lame da makin jauhh dari aq.. aq taw mybe bab taun nie  dye spm, so need to struggle in study but dye kna arr pham aq gak.. nie tak, bile dah free mcg nan aq cam uhh jew.. huu... k aq citer ckit lar sal iteowg.. ONce upon a time (cehh ngade sakan) ... aq ta contact nan  dye lam 2 minggu sal dyeda start dok asrama.. time uhh aq rase sunyi gilew n slalu ajew ingat ingat kan si dye... oke nak dijadikan drama, satu hari uhh dye adew tex aq.. yup my first mcg from him for new year time, mcg yg sngat sangat aq nantikan... so aq nan riang nye bkk mcg cepat (takot dye tertuggu tggu..) but korang nak taw ape aq dapt dari dye???? hummm nie je ''hi, please col me back'' ... waduhh kejam btoi.. aq sabar je tapi still aq syg agi an.. so cpat cpat arr aq col dye (takot dye tertggu tggu lagi skali) and.. korang nk taw ape aq bual kan??? humm yup, ucapan yg aq tggu, tggu slame nie tak unn muncul, muncul..... dye lansung tade cakap, ''bie... i lup u'', ''bie..i mizz u'', or pape je lahh, something romance n sweet.. tapi tuhh ar... prbualan ite juz habiz nan benda yg tade pedah!!! korang.. hati aq hancor and sedey gilew.... humm tapi bab pikir dye pakwe aq... aq still trima uhh..!!! and till skrang aq ta dgar lagi that magic word ''Beby, i lup u so much'' huuum.. T__T ... btw law dye bace nie.. aq nak ambik pluang and say something here that.....   ~ sayunk... beby terlalu rindu and cayunk.. tiap kali bby nak tito, sayunk orang pertame yg beby bayang kan.. beby ta kan lupe smua date yg ite dah lalui same2... best sngat time uh!!! tapi now, syg da mule bruba.. beby prasan uhh!!! and beby taw, syg sendiri un prasan nan prubhan syg kan... btw beby nak bagi taw nie... hemmm walo pon manyak kali syg da minta tok beby lepaz kan syg bab syg rase beby da jemu nan diri syg... syg salah..!!! beby ta pernah jemu n slalu epy either syg just say ''hye'' kat beby!!!! hemm... cam new busan nye beby kat syg.. or syg da wat beby benci sngt kat syg... syunk pegang jnji nie aww, yang.... beby ta akan pernah lepas kan syg!!!!! syg pham beby k.....!!!!! ``` okey2 larr korang.. tu serba sdikit drama tgah hari k..... thankz bace n troskan memollow kan diri k!!! cyunk korang, wsalam.....

sayunk.!!!! beby.... hummm    >_<