ape salah aq? hina sngat kot...!!!~

salam peeper, yup nan mood sedey gilew2 ari nie izin kan aq luahkan segalanye yg ade lam hati aq??? huuu~~~

ya Allah... berat btol dugaan kaw...~ humm... yup tepat sehari seblum bfday aq, aq dipermainkn dalam permainan cinta.... ya Allah aq ta kuat.. (~__~...) dripada tadi jew aq asyik nanges, nanges krana dugaan mu ya Allah...........  hurmm kay lar, pew yg gile trbuku lam hati aq iz,,,~ perlu kew aq terlibat skali nan game yg kowang buat.. yup aq jadi mangsa kpade dua owg yg aq syg n percaye sngat2... myra, afie.... perfect you!!! haa sorry not for thiz time, i cn't hide it.... dua insan yg dah lameeee knakan aq... persoalan yg  sakit sngat dalam hati aq...~ kenape kowrang libat kan aq??? knape aq??????????????? dah hampir 2 bulan aq nan ko fie n dah tiga thun aq mengenali kaw tapi kaw~~~, izin kan aq back to memorize...

---> at that momment before we gathered...~
myra: najwa ko kna couple nan ltfie do.. kecian dye... dye da lame suke and berharap kat ko njwa... trima lar lutfie njwa, aq akan hepy gile bile tngok kaw nan lutfie...
aq: ape ko mepek nie der? aq ta sesempurna manusia tok dye yg terlalu sempurna...

lutfie: najwa, afie juz malaz nak bagi taw awal2 bab afie takot cinta afie ditolak.. najwa, afie bole trima najwa lar..
aq: afie, najwa nie pendek then najwa dok jauh.. snggup ke afie brtahan? sggup ke afie dnan awek duk jauh... besa nye owg clash kan najwa smuanya bagi reason bab najwa jauh kat klntan..~
lutfie: ta jadi masalah kot,  afie snggup tggu najwa..  pendek tggi un bukan ukuran.. cinta kan ta knal rupa ( fakta terpesong dari real)...
aq: tapi fie..~ urmm....

*and akhirnya, aq trima gak~
malam time aq clash nan afwan, aq trus coll lutfie bab aq da taw kemane tuju aq... yeah owg yg aq tggu2... hermm tapi tuhh lar~ tiga jam aq s.save just tok bagi dye btol2 memahami aq,.. tpi dalam pkiran dye just *aq sedang meraihh simpati dri nya.. so sebab uhh lar dye trima aq....~

 Muhammad lutfie satu bulan 18 hari aq nan ko, pon terase lame... akhirnya, kowrang leak ur own secret..!!!!!~

that momment, one day before my bufday 03 april, we finished our relation...~
in FACEBOOK home :
myra: Okayy, kat perempuan tu, aku mintak maaf sesangat tak jujur dengan kau dari awal lagi. Kitaorang memang dah couple dulu. Just tak nak sakitkan hati kau tu tak bagi tahu. Aku tahu kau marah gila kat aku, and kau tak kan maafkan aku pun, tu semestinya;). Anywayy aku tak tahu macam mana nak teruskan hubungan aku dengan dia kalau dah jadi macam ni. Maaf sesangat. Kau jangan salahkan dia, aku yang salah. Im so sorry ='(
*myra kaw pompuan paling ta matured bab update cam uh.. and from that aq da dapat agak segala nya kay... ermmm aq pakse gak afie ckap nan aq benda btoi.. berderu air mate aq time uh... sumpah hati aq terlalu sakit wehh..!

lastly aq trima mcg dari kaw kan fie.. ko bagi taw yg reality  yg ko sbenarnye da couple nan myra sebelum couple nan aq lagi.. then ko minta maaf bagai n cakap yg ko couple nan aq sebab kaw KASIHAN kat diri aq.. n bla.. blaa.. bla... fie, aq tabah trima uhh fie.. tapi care kowang dua salah..... terlalu sakit weh. then ko pon trima mcg dai aq kan? scare ringkas nnye, ''clash kan aq muhammad lutfie, aq redho kalo cam uhh ktentuan nye, and aq redho care ngan care kaw....

ape yg sngat2 menyakitkan fie, myra...~

makhluk ape aq nie fie, myra??? yg sesuka hati kaw je sakitkan.. ya tuhan, kaw nmpak aq nie cam pompuan desperate sngat ke??? yang paling sakit!!!!!!!!!!!!! KENAPE kaw suruh aq couple nan LUTFIE, myra... and kaw lutfie, nape kaw trima aq kalo lnsung takde perasaan cinta......... ???ya Allah susah nye naj jelaskan bertape sakit nye hati aq.. nape fie? nape myra? nape ko plih aq??? nape bwu skrang?? nape mesti sehari sebelum bufday aq?? KENAPE wehh??? bagi lar tahu aq knape~..................................

from now i learn, promise are not the way u lie~ takpe, aq redho....~

pliz kowrang aq update nie bkan tok mohon simpati or terdesak bagai tapi aq nak meka pham betape sakit n ta pham aq nan game uhh.. NO FUNCTION.  waste my time LOL :P kay yg mane tokok tambah sikit uhh ta kisa, memg citernye ta jauh beza..... hermm~ muga berbhagia kowang, thats what i always hope (^__^) thankz...! u make me ashame with my ownself...

mane lar najwa tahu hari nie..... hurmm (.__.'')

salam peeper, yup manew lar hari nie aq tahu .... urmmm --->


pagi2 aq angun subuh nan mood epy, sal niat dlam hati dapat ponteng kelaz Bm (pergi ke pKG tok anugerah NILAM)... angun je terus amik wuduk n ade terniat, muga ari nie ari paling baik wat diri aq...ea, i got it... alhamdulillah ari nie smua best, tak payah hadapi kelaz Bm, met old frenz, dapat makan manyak then markah exam aq gempak gak.. haa.. tapi bile balik jew dari skola... huumm??? :'(
sumpah ai nie sedey, ntah lar... aq dapat tex yg mybe ta best tok aq.. aq dah taw pasal uhh lame, tapi tak taw plk bole syes smpai cam uhh skali.. LOL.... kan da ta best.. then time malam aq (now) aq rase cam something agi fag tok aq... SAYANG... where are u???? hemmm ta tex beby unn yunk? lonely without u......

ea, aq taw... nie len ta bukan ade poblem arr nie.... syg. owg taw... smua masalah ite berpunca daripada my ownself.. kejam kan owg? hermm seyesly i seek for ur apologize.. pliz forgive me.. and wanna say, i miss u Muhammad Lutfie... i know, sepanjang ite coup, seyesly bnyak ujian yg cyg wat tok beby kan? i can feel it honey... trust me, i am the loyal one... humm then for sure gak, syg bnyak bengang nan owg kan? owg taw tuhh... but u should understand,... it juz something like ''dugaan'' that we need face together with a huge patient in our heart... hemm k, Fullstop.. moody... >_< sorry kuwrang... daa~ beby tggu tex syg aw.. waiting for u syunk........................................~

sayunk, ermm i ma cried bcouse of choosing someone valaue within u or him.... but now i still with my own dilema that... ''am i right?'' or ''will him love me full of his heart''... and da... ''can i trust him when face abot LOVE?'' arghhhhh all of it just harassing me~  humm.. but deep in my heart i sincerely hope that u can give and i ma waiting ur TRUTH LOVE sayang....................~

Si Pendek & Si GemOk

holallala... salam kuurang... hey sumpah lame ta update belog nie.. wahahha... tataw nak wat krangan ape ari nie at blog.. ehhee... juz nak agi taw... aq mula epy kot!!! yup kmi si Pendek dan GemOk, insyallah epy slalu.. AMIN....~ hehehe.... syg, ekau jgn lar mara2 aq sngat.. aq kan budak baru yg lemah.. hehhee....  mencintai ku memg lar take time 1 jam tapi mengenali ku take time slame nya.. hope ekau pham k... majok2 n gedik uhh memg hoby aq.. huhahhah seyesly tade story nye pun.. now aq nga lam situasi exam.. mood pon exam.. juz hope korang wish aq LUCK aje k.. sumpah malaz nak taip.. hee wslam do....  layan gamba nak?? hehehe

ayat2 the beshhh...~ --->
(abot LIFE aje)

( LOVE EMO QUOTE) layan ---->

yeahhh thats all... too tired n quiet bored.. thankz for reading.. lup kuurang <3 bubye n wsalam.. :)

kenape nan ku nie??? hurmmm ?

yup, salam semua... errmmm for title today aq nk cer sal perasaan aq yg berbelah bagi skrg.. humm... yup da lbih kuwang seminggu dye tggal an aq n thatss mean da sminggu aq kpel nan si dia... hurmm cam new nak bgi taw ep.. armm the truth, aq not ready at all tok couple lagi... aq accept unn bab pkir prasaan dye, and mybe akan wat aq forget kt yg dye uhh humm.. skali gus aq harap yg aq bole epy nan dye.. tpi ann.. plz, aq bkn nye sellfish nak gunakan org or ape je lah.. tpi... hummm T__T memg in fact, aq ta bole lupe kan yg dia... memg aq da syg and cinta gile kat dye uhh.. smpai skrg aq ta sngka yg dye snggup tggal an aq? humm aq slalu jew tertanye tnye pew larr kekurangan aq sehingga dye snggup buang aq dai idup dyeee??? tiap2 malam bole dikatakan aq nangis tringat kan dye.. (maaf awak) hermmm setiap benda yg aq wat, semuanye mgingat kan aq kat dye.. yup ~rule abot meggy??? ~solat ta bole lewat..!!! ~suare dye yg bernada nada and evrything larr yg dye buat tok aq.... sumpah, bile aq bersame dye, aq ta ubah seperti seorang istri yg dijge oleh suami... bagai tuan puteri yg slalu dilindungi si raja and bagai juliet yg tenang di smping romeo!!!... humm i mizz him a lot... kalo dlu aq perna bagi taw, yg aq da buat pisang berbuah dua kali  and tak kan adew lagi tok yg ketiga kan??? tpi... kalo bole aq nak bgi dye baaanyak peluang, smpai aq btol2 dapat dyee...  hermmm aq btol2 rindu and perlu dyee........


ea, aq taw.. bile korang bace nie, korang rase aq nie sumpah pompuan hipokrit gilew kan???? pompuan yg ta tau malu??? prasan nak pilih laki yg dye suke.. and macam2 yg bole korang pkir kan??? humm tpi caye lar, aq sunyi, aq hanye boleh ngadu kat cni.. nie larr in fact ape yg ade lam ati aq skrg.. ermmm.. yup aq taw aq mungkin silap bile update yg nie kan???  aq taw mungkin dye akn terase and nie sememg nye akn jejas kan hbungan ite kan??? tpi aq ta perna mksud kan uhh syg.. mybe yg past is past bab ape yg aq nak bagi taw at cni, aq akan mengambil masa yg lame tok mengenalimu, mencintaimu, n setia di sisi mu... seyessly maap...

~ ''awak kna taw nape sy segan sikit nan awak.. n mybe awak lagi larr perasan nape sy ta berape nak lyan awak... nape sy ta perna nak end kan colling kite nan , sayang.. i LOVE you..., humm tular semua sebab2 nye...  pew yg sentiase sy harap.. awak pham and sabar menanti sy.. macam mane awak sabar menanti ex awak yg lamee awak cinta and last awak tetap dpt dye kann?? hummm btol2 maaf aw...".....

buat mase skrg, aq juz nak dye pham yg aq btoi2 ta dapat lupekan si dia seratus pratus.. pliz jgn pkse aq, aq lemahh.. aq takot nan diri aq... aq selalu tenggelam kan diri aq nan takot akan cinta... yup aq memg ta serik.. tpi, knpe mreka ta perna memahami aq and jadi kan aq mgsa cintaaa??? hermmm.. aq, memg malang.  T__T ... buat mse skrg aq juz hope, aq dpat mengenali cinta aq skrg... aq dpat mendalami cinta yg dye bagi.. and aq harap sngat yg dye takan kembali ggu idup aq nan yg dye... hermm... I'M SORRY but I LOVE YOU.... 

hahahhaha ray!!!!

salam peeper.. yup title today seems like we have da cheer stolly right??? haaa lets check it in... not out k..!!! humm yup finlly, rayyy!!! hahahhahaa whats that silly gurlz??? just read thiz.....-->

yeahh meyhh those people yg prasan, sila jgn nak senyum2 k..!!! trutama si gemok..!! ehhehe..... yup i got him with da big smile? seyesly??? unbelievable but its a fact!!! huuuhaaaahuuuhaaa.... yup memg susa nak suaikan diri psal da lame knal kan gemok?? hehehe tpi still bole kwal.. yup lame2 sayunk larr uhh kan gemok?? hehehhee.. now what? tah lar, post kali nie. sesaje jew.. nk test kehepian aq.. hahahha.. ea raYY!!! tapapenth.. hehehe... yeeee same2 say RAYY!!!??? (motif pliz???) ... ~hahhahah xda xda.. tok suka suki aje... yup... juz hope kekal nan kamu syg... hee........... ahhahaha kemaz post aq yg sumpah mepek nie??? k lar, lallalaa..... btw nk agi taw nie.. we took 14 feb of 2012 as our begin for journey... hahahhaha and we will end till we die.. really syg??? opcoz.. hahhahaha..!!!

p/s : jgn mara gemok coz col u GEMOK..!!!! ahahhaha  kutuk un tanda sayang kan???? ayat sape larrtu.!!! hahahha lup u syg... wsalam... those CAPITAL L...!!!!

all about MR CAPITAL ''L''

hye and salam peeper.. yeahh we meet again...!!! hurmm i though u all da bace da past post right, ''aku, engkau dan dye...''... hahha ini continued nya... so thats mean korang interst nan stolly molly abot CAPITAL L is't right??? hahahha yup.. thankz korang... so, ape agi... --->

heartz intro iz : CAPITAL L,  who'is check out on 1995, tried to be smart at High Skul Klang, sweetz tall, chubby and most encem...

                                                bismillahirahmannirahim....

thiz iz all about u Capital L,  firstly aq minta maaf sngat if aq da hurt ur heart.. yup, being selfish gurlz iz da bad thing that i had made...!!! ermm kat cni sbenarnye aq juz nak ngaku yg kehadiran  kau, capital L  sngat lar bermakna.. aq btoi2 minta maaf bab pernah jauh ann diri dai ko dlu... hemm yup, i ma fag and fu*k girlz... yeahh meyh 10 february of 2012 is meaningful to me, end with him without him, but began with u is u... (broken sentence)... haa oke lar berjela aq pokpek.. still ta pham.. sbenarnye aq da taruh hati lame unn kat capital L nie.. cume aq juz sedar yg care dye layan aq ta tumpah seolah2 dye ngah lyan adik dye... so, aq juz bole pendam and enjoyed dilayan begitu... (terase diri ku bermakna bab ade owg yg care for me)... so smalam aq da clash nan dye yg btoi2 wat aq buta nan cinta... trus aq col capital L  tok mengadu nasib and luah kan segala galanye... sape lar pham and thu benda yg tersirat di sebalik COLLING tuh kan, include u capital L.... humm dai smalam aq cube nak take him as my new boyfie... tpi aq malu nan diri aq...!!! mybe aq nie ta sedar diri and terserlah sngat Sellfish  aq tuh.. bab aq bru aje nak col dye, and time aq nan mamat dlu.. aq tros ta pedulikan dye... pompuan jeniz ape aq nie??? (sekali agi aq akn gune ayat nie) ~ Aq bagaikan pengemiz buta yg terabe rabe~ ... humm so motif post aq kali nie, aq juz nk bgi taw (kalo dye bace) yg malam tuhh aq col sbenarnye untok aq luah kan kat dye yg aq sayang dye, aq cinta dye and nak dye jadi milik aq seowg aje... maaf lar, aq ta pandai nak luah kat ko, bab aq terase yg diri aq nie btol2 sial and lansung ta bermakne unn.. humm..  T__T  fucking end ~~~

so, itu aje lar dai aq... dgan harapan satu hari nanti aq dpat wat relation betol2 nan capital L  n sincerely hope yg, aq akn terdengar lamaran ko, juga satu hari nanti... aq just bersabar and wait that word out from ur sexy lipz... ''wawa, bole ite capel x??? and bole wawa jadi awek (capital L) ..... yeaa najwa tggu.. w'salam...

aku.. engkau... & dia..

salam peeper.. ermm yup for title today iz about me, him and da him... yup the first him iz all abot capital A and other him iz all abot capital L... humm ta taw nak citer cam ner and seyesly aq malu nan diri aq sendri... terase diri aq nie cam pengemiz buta yg terabe rabe dlam idup... aq da delete abot past post.. terkenang kn engkau si capital A, seyesly wat aq ase nak mati and idup smula (tok mula kan idup baru)... so i had to throw u away.. far from my life.. sorry for capital A  u never be mine... ckup lar, aq da buat buah pisang berbuah dua kali and tak kan ade agi kali yg ketiga... sumpah time uhh aq buta and terlalu terdesak... aq ingat dgan keadaan ko yg dtg alik lam idup aq bole wat aq caye nan CINTA PERTAMA aq... but seyesly aq clap agi.. ko.... hemm memg btoi lar....!!! (mara nie =,,=)... walopape pon... ko dah buat aq TERPERASAN kat seseorang yg aq rase bersalah gilew... tut..tut....tut... teros ke capital L.. seyesly aq minta maaf nan kamu.. aq taw aq nie useless gile.. lnsung ta beharge n ta layak gile idup dlam dunia nie... minta maaf sngat2 selalu mengabaikan perasaan ko kat aq.. yup alasan aq slalu cam nie, ''kalo aq dapt couple nan ko, mybe at that momment aq epy.. tpi bile aq da clash nan ko pas uhh... aq tak kan dapat ase nikmat nye ade teman cam ko lagi, capital L...  humm aq btoi2 minta maaf..., now mybe aq cube rapat nan diri ko, for evrytime aq contact ko kan Capital L  (aq rase ko pon perasan kat smua yg aq wat kan?), tpi aq still malu gilew, aq perlu mengemiz skali agi, and plizz bgi aq peluang tok adew lam idup ko... tpi tu lar!!! i had made A GOLD WITHOUT VALUEABLE ... ermm so now i ma in my own DILEMA... hahahaa...

p/s: sape ase interst kat cite aq nan CAPITAL L, bole teros follow aq kat next post... all of it iz about CAPITAL L... sincerely hope u read thiz, najwa... w'salam.................